My Name is Rell Ford. I'm a 28 year old woman who never thought that i will reach the top but my whole life changed 6 years ago. But let me start at the beginning.
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It's my grade 9 year, I've met the boy of my dreams, August, we are young, crazy, stupid and in love. We alway believed that we are destined mates. The the Godess chose us to be together. We made alot of memories. On the farm was some of my best memories. He has 2 brothers named Frank and Jean. During the week we would all attend school and over weekends we would have the time of our lives.
Every weekend we would arrange for friends to come over, have fun on the 4 wheelers, arrange drinking sessions or drive the parents insane
our mom's are best friends
. The brothers have the same group of friends because they are so close in age. So most of the weekends the same group of friends will come over to join us.
It's a hot summers Friday night and we are all in the pool, some friends are challenging each other to see who can swim the fastest or can swim the longest without taking a breath, you know how boys at that age can be, all of a sudden i feel a pair of eyes on me that made me feel uncomfortable, a feeling that was not familiar to me. Not even my own lover could look at me from a distance and made me feel what i felt at this exact moment. I tried searching for the burning eyes with no success. I excused myself from the pool and went straight for my room. As soon as i entered my room i locked the door and hoped that no one would disturb me. I got into my pajamas and got in bed. I was restless, tossed and turn the most of the night until I heard a knock at at the door. "Who's there?" I asked quietly. "Rell, open up it's me" said August agitated. "Why the f#ck would you lock the door, what were you up to behind close doors while everyone is outside??" How was i suppose to explain to him that someone, i don't know who, is making me feel uncomfortable? "Sorry it was out of habit" was the only excuse i could come up with. He took some dry clothes from the closet and walked out of the room slamming the door behind him. I let him be, that's what a good girlfriend does, right? I was a good girlfriend after the grade 10th year when he was kept back because to him, friends, alchol and drugs were more important than school work, I was a good girlfriend when he's mother passed away in grade 11, I was a good girlfriend when he needed a punishing bag and i didn't say a word about it, I was a good girlfriend when i begged him to go to prom with me and when he needed a prom date. But i was never a good girlfriend when i asked for love and affection or attention.
The year after my matric year i got lost in drugs with him because i was trying to fit in and still haven't found out if we were destined mates and I was just trying to be a good girlfriend, a girlfriend he would be proud of, but he was never proud, i was never good enough for him. I fell pregnant with a baby girl just after my 20th birthday. It felt like the Goddess was trying to tell me something but i had no idea what. How can one fell pregnant with a Wolf's pup that's not her mate yet, or is he? How come my wolf hasn't come forward yet? So many questions without any answers.
August got he's wolf 3 days after his 18th birthday. Until today we thought that we were destined mates.
My pregnancy was the worst ever. Never have I every thought that this will be my life. That this is how my pregnancy will go, without my mate, without support from the one I love.
The day i went into labour I was super excited to meet my pup. She's literally the only one i was living for. I still didn't have my wolf. I felt alone. August came in the room when my contraction started and told me that if i need anything, he will be right outside the door. As soon as he closed the door behind him i started crying. I pryaed to the moon goddess and pleated for support through this time. I calmed myself and the next thing I started to hear a voice trying to call out to me. I almost had a heart attach. "Rell stop denying me" "Rell you need to accept me". I asked as soft as i possibly could "who are you?" A very soft, kind and welcoming voice answered "I'm your wolf, Tash", I started crying tears that I held back for such a long time, tears that held every emotion in my body and every tear burnt as it fell down my face. "Hush now little one" Tash comforted me. " Everything will be just fine, you'll see". That was my hope, those words where the one's I held on to. Hours of pain passed without any sign of the baby coming soon. My mom would pop in every now and then to check on me but never stayed to long. I had some time on my hands and decided to talk to Tash, maby she have answers for me. "Tash, i have so many questions " You can ask me anything Rell, I promise to answer you as truthful as I can". I started off with the question I've been asking myself for the last 2 years "Why did you take so long to come forward? I mean all my friends, or most of them got their wolfs the day of their 18th birthday". She replied with a tone I wished August would use more often "My dear, you have been caught up with so many wrong things in life, i tried reaching out to you more than once but the moon goddess kept me back until the day you were ready to accept me, you were alone most of today and cried so much, the moon goddess let me comfort you by coming forward. I know you need me more than..." A door slammed and I immediately knew that August is here. I was excited and my hearr Skipped a beat because i knew that today is the day my wolf would see our Mate for the first time. Today is the day that our wolfs will connect and all of this on the day we get to meet our baby girl. The moment he pulled away the curtain of my room, my hart sank. My wolf pulled back to the back of my mind and all i felt was confusion. Why did she do that? Wasn't she suppose to jump up and down and get all excited for our mate? Then it hit me like a ton on bricks... He's not my mate. We're not destined to be together. But how did i get pregnant? How did i bare a child of a wolf that's not my mate? My face dropped. And another contraction came and another nd another. I was about to give birth and all I could think of was the fact that he isn't my mate. I chose to have my mom next to me and not August. I decided not to tell anyone about my wolf yet. Then i heard Tash speak again " Rell, I need you ro push, i need you the give birth to our pup". I realised that this one piece of him will be my saving piece. The piece i will treasure forever.
I pushed and pushed for about 48 min and a beautiful baby girl was born. I decided to call her Naell. My name and my mom's name, Naomi, mixed.
She was the most beautiful blond baby girl I have ever seen. August burst through the doors demanding everyone to leave the room to give us some privacy. Did i mention how demanding and aggressive he can get? He took my pup from my arms and cuddled her. He unwrapped her and inspect every inch of her. I turned to me with a sour look and said "atleast she looks like me" he gave her back to me and turn to leave the room, just before he exits the doors he turned to look at me and said "well I guess i will see you tomorrow morning when I pick you up" and he left. Wasn't he excited about our baby? Wasn't he proud of how strong i was during labour? I looked down at my pup and said "Don't worry my Naell, i will never leave you. I promise to love you, protect you and look out for you till i take my last breath" and a tear rolled down my cheek. Tash's voice was clear "Rell, he's not our mate, he was put on your path to give you this present, that's it. She will save you, she will be your comfort and your hope, your reason to keep pushing every day from now on. You need to believe that everything that happens in live, happens for a reason."
I was sad, my heart was broken, i didn't know how to respond. I placed my baby in the crip and got my thing together for a much needed shower. I flipped the hot tap up to heat up while getting undressed. I stared at myself in the mirror and wonder what is the purpose of my life? Why did all of this happen to me? I got in the shower and felt every single hot drop of water roll down my sore and aching body. I mean, i just gave birth to a healty baby girl with only the help of my mom and my wolf. I cried in the shower and decided that I won't ever cry for him again. He's not worth it. I've never been good enough for him. I never will be good enough for him and all I need to do is get out. I need to work on a plan to get out, but where will i go? My mom is in the same pack as he is and my dad, well my dad left for he's second chance mate 16years ago. Maby i can try and find him and stay with him a bit. I was tired. I needed rest. I finished up in the bathroom and decided to get to bed. Tomorrow i will start working on a plan to get out but for now i needed to heal.
Side note: i will not post a note again. Thank you so much for reading my book. At the end of the last chapter i will leave a note with a bit of a twist. Please be patient as this is my very first book. You are welcome to leave notes or advice. I promise to explain everything in as much detail as possible and try to get each and everyone into this story.
