Finding a job as a graduate was like the most shittiest stage to ever hit in South Africa... We have unemployed youth running on the streets with degrees in their hands... A stage where you end up asking yourself if going to college or university was even worth in. I mean some students end up with dept of student loans and then get depressed since they ain't getting a job. It's horrible...
It was so scary when I finished graduating but not that much scary because I've been a bit smart and thought ahead for myself. Pecks of staying with smart people.
So while my friends and I were in college, Precious started a company and three years later it's blossoming like anyone's business. Susan was about to start working for the biggest IT company in the country and I... well lets just say I've been pretty awesome with words to a point where I published two of my books without even an editor.
Tadaaaaaaaaa yep. All me..
So I had money... I was swimming in it, but I needed a stable job so I can keep on writing. So, because I was way over my head and an idiot I applied for anything under writing, be it be an editor, copywriter or just a writer.. everything.
So a few days ago I got a call from some company called L.V PUBLISHING HOUSE...
I asked Susan to Google the company for me and tell me the most important things about it.
Turned out that it was now four years old and has pretty much grown for a new company. Published a few nice books, I've seen their authors on tv and met some at book launches. For that I trusted them to hire me.
"So I ladies am soo ready to go get this job at Love Very Publishing House..tomorrow" I said making my friends laugh.
"Idiot that L.V doesn't stand for Love Very..." Precious said throwing a pillow at me and Susan got up, "let me make food because I swear we will be cooped up on this couch the whole day if I don't get up your asses really need to start being passionate about food."
I laughed, "really we do?"
Precious looked at me, "maybe we do. So what are you making us today Chef Susan..?"
"I'm just going to cook your big ass and mix it with Olly's big head or hair.. I'm not sure, still trying to figure that shit out..." the white girl responded and we all erupted into laughter..
It was a blessing to be staying with these two, our friendship was solid four years later and we had each other's backs.
Soon after after Ms Louw left my high school it wasn't easy. I would miss her on a daily basis but Jasmine was there. It was crazy how different yet the same she was to Ms Louw. by August Jas and I were solid, the thought of Ms Louw still hurt but not that much, I was trying to move on.
Sandra, she hated me more when Jasmine picked me over her after trying so hard to separate us. Jas talked to her, pointed blankly that she needed to stop being obsessed with her and start living her life because no matter what she did, she'd never love her. Next thing I knew Sandra wasn't attending, she went to get help cause she was "depressed.." it was funny really in an odd way. But since then I saw Sandra free..
Life at home became a bit better, I was letting my mom in and she was for the first time a mother to me. Our relationship was beginning to be great and she loved Jasmine and I.. She supported me and was insanely overprotective over Lizzie and I.
After high school, I got a scholarship and Susan was accepted at the same university.. Precious moved to Johannesburg too but she did her own thing. In three months we were fully owners of a 3 bedroom apartment in Centurion. yeah I know, fancy.. I used some of the money my "dad" left for me and Precious with Susan added and we bought the darn place..
Jasmine and I kept dating until she got accepted at some dance academy in New York city and then she had to move six months down the line.
Everything was perfect until the time difference killed us including school and then me writing my books on the side and soccer.. time for us reduced then we concluded that it was best we part ways. She told me she loved me and always will. I loved the kid too.. cared for her and always would. Since her and I literally stopped dating. I've had girls wanting me but I was focused on my Shit.
Jasmine would visit her family here in S.A and then I'd get laid. It just happened.. we would say we are meeting for a drink and she'd end up under me in my bedroom... and I didn't complain. Neither did she.. we enjoyed each other's company.
The first year went on like that and I published my first book TIMELESS... then the second book was published the following year. During my 3rd year I started writing my book.. my real life story.. about the shit my father put me through. That one was hard to title. Hence I was still writing it even today under the title UNTITLED
Louw? Let's just say that woman took a part of me I thought never existed and she left me with it. I was now, today okay because I made peace with loving her even though she wasn't a part of my life, but not before. I'd literally check her on her Facebook even though we were not friends.. and I'd kinda stalk her on other social media platforms.
Susan tried to stop me and monitored me. I left Louw alone when she posted a picture of her and her family
including her wife
on her birthday the following year, saying it was a day well spent with her loved ones... Something died in me when I finally gave up.. something shut down in me and whatever it was, I can't even explain it today. Because even today I can't love anyone.
"This thing of me cooking for your asses has to end..." Susan complained and I laughed, "Precious can cook... me.. I'll write food for you."
My friends laughed as we ate. Tomorrow was my interview and I was a bit nervous to be honest. The company I'm going to might be small, but it has done a lot of shit and I was a bit nervous..
"I'm off and I'm not washing dishes.. Tomorrow it's a special day for me."
"Fine. I'll wash them tonight only.. from tomorrow it's you foreeeever."
I laughed at Precious, "in your dreams Rosie.. goodnight bitchess..."
I went to bed and slept. Everything else was going to happen tomorrow and I needed to trust that I could do this.
