4 years ago

I looked around at my surroundings, everyone here was wearing a traditional black dress with a black cap.Yes, I was graduating. I was one of those students who was going to graduate that day. I was excited, yet so nervous, as I waited for my name to be called on the stage. I saw my friends, some were tapping their fingers on their laps , some were constantly moving their legs and some were biting their nails. I chuckled at them 'Signs of nervousness'.

"Alexandra Ronald."

Among the buzzing and humming sounds of noises, I heard my name being called. I made my way towards the stage praying I wouldn't fall on my way and make a fool of myself. You know the feeling, right? When you are the center of attention and hope that you wouldn't do anything embarrassing. Luckily, I reached the stage without slipping,tripping, falling or other embarrassing scenarios. I looked straight at the teachers not wanting to see the crowd. They handed me my degree , shook hands. I closed my eyes and turned around to face the crowd. I looked at the swarming faces of people. Students and their parents. But in my case , I got no parents. My parents died in a car accident when I was 13 years old. Till now at the age of 21, I was living with my grandma who is like my second mother. My eyes stung with unshed tears at the thought of my parents.

But suddenly my eyes met with a handsome devil, or you can say my handsome devil. I smiled at him and he just gave me his signature smirk. His eyes were looking at me, proudly and lovingly. Just one look from him, and I could feel my confidence building up. I locked my eyes never breaking the contact.

I gave a small speech thanking my teachers, friends, my grandma for all of the support and love. Also thanking my parents for raising me into who I am now, for watching over me from above. Once my speech finished , a loud round of applause rang through the crowd as people clapped for me. A small smile graced my lips as a warmth of pride spread in my heart.

But my eyes only searched for him. When our eyes contacted again, he nodded towards the gate, indicating to meet him outside. As I made my way towards the door, people congratulated me, giving me hugs. I thanked everyone and hurriedly made my way outside. I went towards the park which was at the back of my college, only to find him leaning against the tree in the shade, playing with his bow tie. Even after 2 years of our relationship, he still took my breath away.

He, Xander Knight, my life, my first kiss and my first everything. He was my knight in shining armor. He was weird but he was my weird, so it was okay with me. Sensing my presence, he looked up. He always knew when I was coming and from where. It's like he could feel me even from a mile. I looked at his face, making my way towards him. Greyish blue eyes, black hair, straight cut jaw, lean body but hard muscles. My devil.

I stood in front of him, just inches away. He was tall. He narrowed down his eyes at me, but the softness was always there for me while i looked up at him, smiling. I moved closer, our bodies were now touching. He smiled and sighed, snaking his arm around my waist, he pulled me to his chest. I blushed and looked down. I felt his chest rumbled then he put his one cold finger under my chin, lifting my face up. He was always cold, so many times I asked him why, but he never answered. I looked at his eyes and bit my lower lip which got his attention. His eyes fell on my lips and he leaned down like he was in a daze.

His lips captured mine. First slowly pulling my lower lips between his lips, then kissing me hard, holding me tight. It sent shivers down my spine. He smirked on my lips, he knew the effect he had on me. He thrusted his tongue inside my mouth, not even asking permission. One hand holding me against him, the other wrapped around my hair.

I pulled away from him to catch my breath, he growled and frowned at me. Of course. He didn't need air after the kisses, he could kiss me for 1 hour without even needing air. I told you he was weird. I pecked his lips quickly and smiled.

"Congratulations. We are graduated..." I breathed out. He smiled down at me, putting his forehead against mine.

"Yeah.. I had a graduation present for you.." His deep voice always hit me like a hot sun. You know the hot feeling? I jumped in excitement. He put his hand inside his pocket, took out a locket and hang it in front of my face.

Wowwww... It was beautiful... The locket consisted of a heart pendant in Ruby Stone.

"Is it for me ..?" I asked in awe. He nodded, looking at my face.

"But it looks so expensive. I can't take it.. " he rolled his eyes at me and spun me around and slowly slided my hair from my back to my shoulders, baring my neck to him. He put the locket around my neck,clasping the lock and kissed the side of my neck, I leaned back on his chest. He put his head on my neck and sniffed me, he had a strange habit of doing this. But I was not complaining, it turned me on.

"Why did you come outside?" I asked him.

"I don't like crowds, Lexi." He grumbled, using my nickname, he had given me. Just like that, his every answer was always one word answer, but still I was not complaining because he didn't even talk to anyone besides me..

I still remembered that day when he first came here. Sitting alone in a corner. I felt bad for him because he was always alone, so one day I decided to sit with him on lunch. At first, he just looked at me while I talked. Then the next day, he saved a seat for me, motioning with his head to sit with him. Our routine was same for some weeks; I talked, he listened and looked at me, but him watching me would always bring comfort. As days passed, he started saying something in between my talking. We became inseparable after that he followed me everywhere like a lost puppy. Sometimes he would sneak into my room to sleep and well for other stuff. He was a devil in the bed. A blush crept over my cheeks at this thought.

But what now? What would happen now? College was over.

"What now, Xander? What will happen next?" I asked him and felt him tensed behind me. "What happened, Xander? " I asked again worriedly looking In his eyes. He looked back at me with some strange emotions.. Sadness? Guilt? Why was he sad and guilty? I panicked.

He sighed, cupped my face in his hands and said those words that broke my heart into million pieces.

"I have to go." He said. My breathing was uneven. No no no. He can't go. He can't leave. He was my everything.

"You can't just go..!! What do you mean by that? Xander, what are you talking about?" I demanded. Tears were forming at the back of my eyes, but they were not falling yet.

"Listen to me carefully before you make any conclusions. Okay, Lexi? I'm sorry, but I have to go. But it's not it, I promise you I will come back. I will come back to you. Always you." I pulled away from him. His eyes were flashing with hurt. I wanted to comfort him but I couldn't think straight.

"Why do you have to leave?" I asked him.

"I can't tell you..." He trailed off. Why?

"But why? Why can't you tell me?"

"I just can't, okay? Please believe me. I will come back, just like you are mine, I am yours, only yours" he said looking into my eyes.

"When will you come back?" I asked him. He looked down.

"I don't know.." What does he mean by that? Why was this happening? My tears started falling down.

"What do you mean by that? When will you come back? When I fucking die?!" And I regretted what I said, because his eyes became dark, he was angry and when he was angry, he was scary... One minute, I was standing in front of him and the next, I was pressed up against the tree.

"What the fuck did you just say!?" He growled at me, his hands were holding my hands above my head, his body was pushing me into the tree. His head was inches from mine, eyes glaring at me. I tried to get away from his hold but it was useless. He was strong.. " ANSWER ME!!" He shouted. Tears were falling down my eye, shamelessly as looked up at him.

"Yo-you a--ar--are lea-ving me-e" I cried, his eyes softened. He hugged me tight. I pushed my face into his chest and inhaled his manly scent. My hands encircled his waist, fingers holding on his shirt material tightly, not wanting to let go. I shook my head in his chest murmuring "You can't leave me. I won't allow it." His whole body was shaking. His arms gripped me tightly.

Again, I was pushed against the tree but with his lips on my lips, kissing me as there was no tomorrow. And I knew that there would be no tomorrow for us. I returned the kiss with the same force, tears falling down my eyes. We poured out our emotions in the kiss. Everyone left me and he was also leaving me now. I couldn't let that happen. He tried to pull away but I held his head in my hands, not letting go, and kissing him tightly.

He broke free himself free of my hold. I cried out loud. He put his hands on my face, making me look at him. His eyes held unshed tears and so much pain.. He was also hurting..

"I don't know when, but I will come back. You have my heart. You have my life... You are my heart and you are my life... I will always come back because no one can live without his heart.. You don't believe me now. But I promise you, I even promise myself that I will come back and take what is mine. And you know, right? What's mine ? You are mine... You was, you are and always will be mine and I always take what's mine. I am yours, only yours... You have my soul Alexandra Shine Ronald. You are my love, my life..." He trailed off, bringing his face closer to my ears and whispered.

"You, Alexandra Ronald, are my beloved one. No one can take you away from me. Not even you. I will come back and take what belongs to me." I closed my eyes, listening to this. It was calming, listening to this. He kissed my neck, trailing kisses everywhere. He sniffed me for a long time. Then suddenly hugged me. I tightened my hold on him, thinking of every possibility to make him stay. But then he got out of my hold, like he was never there. One minute, he was in my arms and then he was nowhere. How is this possible? I frantically looked around, searching for him. Nowhere. He was nowhere.

"Xander!!!" I shouted

"Xander... Please... Xander!" I kept crying and shouting but he never came.

I fell down on my knees, as a new wave of tears hit me. I cried again and again.

He was gone. He was gone.