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Don't judge me by my past, I don't live there anymore

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9 years ago

Quite, good

but it's too quite , not good

I learnt that the hard way

Knock,Knock,knock

A knock on the door brings me out of my nightmare of a life or Deep thoughts that's what other people call it

I stand up and I feel the presence of Victoria my little sister

she is 7 right now

I keep my door shut and locked at all times because no one will want to see what I do in here

I keep my bedroom key on me at all times , as a necklace

I opened the door for Victoria but I did not let her in, I hid my room from her eye sight

"Hi ray, dad wants to talk to you in his office" she says as she turned to leave

Dad wants to speak to me. Okay, think why?

1. The fact that I have not left my room since mom passed away , no since mom was killed

2. I have not spoken to anyone since that horrific day

3. I don't eat breakfast and Dinner , I only eat lunch

I think his gonna try making me cry again . I haven't cried, spoken or slept since her death

I don't even eat enough

I obey my father's rules because I know he is also hurting so I don't want to give him a tough time

I just went to his office

I opened the door and made my way to the couch, waiting for his speech but no it was something else this time

"Raven, Raven, Raven, Raven, Raven" Dad calls me repeatedly, hoping for me to respond

I just think it's a foolish attempt to get me to talk back

"So be it , you don't want to talk to me then I will speak to you" dad adds

I still remain silent

"When your mom passed away, it wasn't your fault Ray. I know you can hear me. Your mom sacrificed herself for her children and that was what a loving  mother does" he says

Cough

Correction she was murdered

No,no,no Raven don't listen to him . He is trying to make you break

He continues "She loved and she cared for you and your sister-"

"ENOUGH"I shouted , I broke but I will not cry.

"God, I missed that voice" dad said with a lone tear running down his face

I left his office

Running towards the kitchen

I heard Victoria and my dad speak

"Daddy, your plan worked. You got her to speak again"Victoria spoke

Dad sighed

"Yeah, I know but I don't think she will ever be the same"dad said

Atleast he knows

"She hasn't cried yet ,why?" Victoria asked

Victoria's Nickname is vikky

She was to young to understand what happened that day. All she has are nightmares but as soon as she wakes up ,she forgets all about her nightmare

But I .... I suffer , I remember everything

"I don't know but atleast she spoke"dad said

I am angry - sad - disappointed

I really don't know what to feel but all I know is that revenge will set me free

"I , Raven Elisa Cross vow to seek revenge for my mother's death, they will be punished I swear" I vowed silently as I cut my hand to perform the blood promise ritual

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The End

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