I prefer to pretend that I don't know him when the time comes and we will meet again, even though I really know him very well, even his friends. I changed my personality just because of him. I don't know why I trusted him.
"I guess the depth of what you're thinking," my friend said, Criza. Criza has been my friend for a long time. She also knows about my life.
"I want to tell you something," I began. She didn't say a word and just listened to what I had to say next. "I don't think I'm ready for him to know the truth when the day comes that we meet again. Yes, the time will come when he will know the truth but I'm afraid that will happen. I don't want him to know I've changed because of what he didI don't want him to know who I really am. I don't want him to know me," I continued. She obviously gets what I'm referring to.
"Don't worry. You both know he made a mistake. You did nothing but love him," she replied to me. Because of what she said, what happened in the past was flashed black into my mind.
I am here at the Mall today with one of my friends, Criza. We're both having fun. Today is me and my boyfriend's anniversary. Actually we will meet today here at the Mall. He's my first boyfriend and hoping that he'll be the one to marry me.
"Maybe it's fun? If we stay together until the end. We'll get married after you're all there at our wedding, then you'll also be the godmother of our children, hahaha. The fun maybe when that happens." We both laugh because of my dreams that I really want to come true.
The fun in feeling that we both lasted. The person I love dearly loves me dearly too. He always makes me smile and make me laugh. that person was too much for me.
As we walked, I was still holding the necklace he gave me during our first monthsary. I was so happy when I received it from him. I keep it because it comes from him.
"By the way, your boyfriend is already here, but wait! Who is the woman in front of him? And why are they still talking on the side? The size of that chair has a wide space," she said to me while pointing at the chair that had a wide space. My friend was very curious so I was also touched.
"Can we approach? After all, your boyfriend might even flirt with that woman." I just nodded and agreed with what she said because I was carried away by what she said. As we approached, a woman's voice grew louder.
"Can you tell her the truth?" She said to my boyfriend. Criza and I just looked at each other as if we were asking each other what was going on.
"Come closer so bhes," she whispered to me.
"Let's hear what they're talking about firstI know my boyfriend won't fool me," I whispered in response just enough to hear it.
"As long as we have to keep it a secret? You know I really want to be with you always. Divorce, didn't you say on your anniversary that you will divorce her to make it more painful for her? Why don't you still talk to her until now?" What did she mean?
"Is there something I need to know that you're not telling me?" I asked them. I could no longer hold back. Even though I didn't know the truth, tears were slowly forming in my eyes. The shock was obvious on their faces. Especially with my boyfriend.
"Babe let me explain," he said making my chest throb even more. No, I don't what to know the truth. I can't bear to know that I haven't been good enough for him. "I love you so much babe, please whatever you've heard let me explain." It was about to touch my hand but I pulled it away from him. I don't know where I'm going to run to get them out of my sight. I wanted to step away from my feet but I couldn't.
"The truth is, Faith and I have a relationship. I didn't mean to hurt you babe, please believe me. I love you so much." He knelt down in front of me but I felt nothing but pain and anger. I didn't know what to do with what I heard. The person I thought loved me too much was the one who was secretly stabbing me.
"No, your love for me is not enough and sorry for being not enough for you. You're a lier, you made me believe you loved me for a years. You're telling now that you love me? Then tell me, how can you say that you love me when you're hurting me so much? Are you crazy? How can you convince me that you really love me? Gone! I have lost my trust in you. Tell me, when did your relationship start?" This time I couldn't stop my tears from flowing. I let my cheeks get wet because of the pain my heart was feeling. I don't know if I will be angry with myself. I don't know what is the shortcoming that I didn't give to my boyfriend. "Answer me! When?" I said in the high tone of my voice.
"Hmm... When i-its our 7th monthsary," he stammered.
"What the! It's been a long time. You've been fooling me for a months. Why didn't you just say so? You shouldn't have made me feel that I was important to you because I hoped. I went blind for six years. I've never been able to fool you," I said while crying. What's wrong with me? Am I not worthy to be loved? Why does destiny make me feel this way?
"Can you stay away from us?" The woman said with it. I didn't know her, her face wasn't familiar.
"The courage to keep me away from my boyfriend. I was the first, and you knew in yourself that you were out of position. You destroy other people's relationships just for your happiness. I don't think it's right," I said. I just want to fight for my rights. Until now my tears are still flowing. I can't deny that I'm really hurt. I approached the woman now just looking at my habit. I pulled her hair, I thought she must have been hurt but I was wrong. I was the most crushed the next time I found out.
"That's enough. I'm pregnant!" It said out loud. I was stunned at what I was doing. I was crushed inside. Did I hear right? She's pregnant and my boyfriend is the father of what she's carrying?
"Liar!"
"I'm not forcing you to believe, but I'm telling you. I'm 2 months pregnant and I will never let the child grow up without an recognized father," she said. No matter how much love you feel for the person you love, if you are not satisfied with it, you have nothing against it. I looked at my boyfriend and he nodded.
"Take care of your family, make them your dreams. Take care of your future child, do not hurt the woman of your choice. Do not do to her what you have done to me. Congrats!" I ran away from them and I knew my friend had just following me. I stopped in a chair but it was far away from them.
"Why it's really hurt? Why did this happen to us? What's wrong with me?" My friend leaned over me and hugged me. She stroked my back and forced me to lie down.
"You deserve someone better. God just took you away from what you don't deserve. Right now you will be hurt, but when will the man destined for you come? Trust me, you can't be hurt like this." I was still leaning on his shoulder as I cried. I felt lenience for myself, I didn't deserve to be hurt but why?
"He promised me he wouldn't hurt me," I said.
"Stop, don't waste your tears."
"The pain is here, too much pain." She didn't utter a word but she still continued to caress my back.
"You don't deserve him. Be strong, you should still be thankful because you lost a cheater in your life." I wiped my tears because I realized what she said was right. I shouldn't waste my tears on the worthless man.
