Alexandria Felix

"Da..dad" I whispered unsure if anyone can hear me. I screamed but I couldn't even hear my own voice. It felt as though my throat was clogged.

I stepped down from my car and ran to him without closing the door

Two big pair of hands held me and a cold metal pointed to my head to stop me from going to save him.

I stiffened and looked at my surrounding

The subway was empty and in a secluded part of the town and dad was chained to the rails after being badly beaten up to pulp.

My brain began functioning well again when I hear the sound of the approaching train. I elbowed the huge man's in in his hard stomach that I felt my hand weaken at the impact because of how much force I used and knocked the gun off his hands before he could press the trigger.

The man growled but my panic increased as the train was no longer so far away from my dad.

I round kicked him in his voodoo masked face but he didn't flinch at the impact because I wasn't so focused on the fight. All I could think of was saving my dad

He held onto my hair and pulled me up so my feet left the ground and knocked the air out of my lungs by giving me two swift punch in the stomach. Just then the police siren filled our ears and it distracted him a bit.

I endured the pain and pushed myself up and wrapped my legs around his neck still with his hand holding my hair painfully. I twisted and snapped his neck with my legs

After satisfyingly hearing a crack I hurriedly ran towards dad but just as I ran for about five steps the blurring train sped over him and I dazed at the blood spattered place where he was.

Bits, parts and pieces of his body littered and I stopped running. I looked painfully at the horrifying sight.

Tears began to seep through my eyes. "No" I whispered feeling numb

The far away blaring of the ambulance siren was so loud that I felt eardrums would explode,

I felt I would explode from the pain I felt. This hurts so damn much.

"Daaaaaaaaaddddddd!!!!" I screamed and burst into tears, crying like a baby And shut my eyes tightly

"No....this. Can't be real. No. This." I said between uncontrollable sobs.

"No! You can't just leave me..." I whispered in pain

"You can't just do that to me....dad, dad" I whimpered in tears

I felt someone's arm wrapped around me but I paid no heed to the person. I don't want to feel the reality of my world. Slowly I sank on the ground with shaky hands then my body trembled badly. I was shaken by the event.

The person who hugged me kept on saying things that sounded too loud and too distant at the same time. My heart can't take this.

My head felt so light, black dots filled my vision then the distant sound of my mother's voice and my body being shook by her. Mum? She must be in agony but I can barely move all I see is darkness.

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I fluttered my eyes open and blinked into several time as I looked at the milk ceiling above which was blurry at first.

I felt someone holding onto my hand and slid my gaze to the person to recognize my mum and the equipments around me proved that I was in the hospital.

The events I witnessed came back lightening fast to my brain and my heart constricted in pain.

I looked at my mum's puffy eyes hazel eyes that mirrored mine.

"How are feeling now Darling?" She asked with concern etched in her tone as she pushed back the hair from my face.

"Mum. I'm so sorry. Dad..." I wanted to say but the words felt heavy.

"Sshhh, It's not your fault darling, it's not your fault"

She said as she hugged me

"No mum it's my fault. I stood there helplessly looking at the train speed.." I whispered and bit my lips to stop my tears

"You killed no one, never blame yourself.... My angel," she shook her head continuously

She cried even more and I held mine at the bay and she rubbed my hand.

"Mum I should have stopped dad from going there...I was just so mad that I..."

"Shhhh...it's gonna be OK. We will get through this together. We are family okay?" She said while tucking loose strands behind my ears.

"But why us mum? Why do we have to witness all this? It keeps getting worse. I can't face this reality" I said softly

"We are gonna be okay? This is just what fate planned." She said shaking her head. She is trying to be strong for us.

I opened my mouth to say something but was interrupted by a knock on the door.

A man walked in and I recognise him to be an officer because of his uniform.

He gave mum a nod, she heeded and went out of the door with him. I guess to speak to her at the hallway.

I stood up and tiptoed to the door and placed my ears on it

I barely made out the voices I heard

He introduced himself and greeted her.

" Mrs felix, I'd like to offer my condolences " said the officer

Mum replied with a quiet thank you

"We made an investigation concerning your husband's demise"

"And what did you find out?" She asked calmly

"Unfortunately the place were he passed on had not camera because it was on the outskirts of town and not a subway station. Just a field with railways." He replied professionally

"Go on"

"The only few thing we found at the scene of the crime was a gun, a huge man I believe his neck was snapped and the voodoo looking mask of a deadly group led by a said 'big boss'"

My breath hitched as mum made out words through a shaky voice

"What?"

"Mrs Felix, the very next day a man dressed in an expensive suit walked into the station and claimed he had a confession. He said that he was the one responsible for whatever happened to late Mr Felix. He was in alliance with big boss and they planned his demise together and he claimed he was scared for his life." He paused as though waiting for mum to sink in the information

"The next day the body of the man we held in custody was found in front of the station mutilated beyond recognition and DNA tests proved it was him. To our dismay, there no camera traces of anyone entering the prison where he was kept and No sign of finger prints on him except his. The murder was expertly done. That's the way the psychopathic big boss commits such horrifying crimes. I'm sorry Mrs Felix but that was the dead end" he ended softly

Mum took in deep breaths and said

"I know that you're supposed to give me this information in the station but my stubbornness to leave my daughter for the past three day inconvenienced you, I'm sorry about that"

The rest of what they said was inaudible. This can't be true. No this has to be a lie.

I heard mum's quiet sobbing and fading footsteps.

Mum held the door knob and twisted it open, she did not push it open immediately as if she was preparing herself to face me and I use the opportunity and I hurried back to the hospital bed an faced away from mum pretending to be asleep. I can't look at her.....I can't see her in pain....my heart is in a million pieces as I hear her say

"I'm sorry xandria....you had to witness all these. I failed to protect you" she said in a strained voice.

What is she protecting me from??

Whatever the case may be, right now I only thirst for revenge and that is what I'm gonna get.

I smirked bitterly as I made up my mind to avenge for dad's death. I'm gonna make them suffer. I don't believe he just died without trace something doesn't seem right.

Well as expected a burial took place the day after i was discharged. I wonder what there is to bury but mum thought that we should do so. I stood a step behind my mum in a black knee length dress

I can't even count how many times I cried behind the shades I wore.

I was in my world of agonizing pain as I tried to close my eyes. The priest said some things I barely heard as the coffin was lowered

Then I lost track of what was happening until I was tapped by Jane.

She gave me a tight hug and a reassuring pat mouthing 'you are gonna get through this'

While I just nodded at my best friend looking around to realize that people are already dispersing after saying few things to mum and some were hugging her, others were crying and dad had been buried.

She released me from the hug and looked at me with concern

"Xandria? You can..." She started but I cut her off

"I'm fine Jane" I replied sharply

"Don't lie to me" she whispered

"I said I'm fine okay? You can leave now" I snapped at her because I knew talking to her could make me break down in tears.

Hurt flashed across her eyes before she nodded in understanding and gave me a small hug.

She squeezed my hands, let out a soft smile and reluctantly trailed after her dad.

I pushed myself to mum who sat next to dad's tomb mumbling incoherent words and took in her pale looks before giving her a comforting hug

"I miss him xandria, I want him back, he promised to always be there but he left me??"

She said breaking down into sobs

"I'm aware this hurts so freaking much but we are gonna give this pain a good fight because we are not weak" i said rubbing her back.

She smiled weakly at me

"Alexa darling, sometimes it's okay to be weak. Stop bottling up your pain and anger. Please for once, just let it out"

"Mum, I'm fine. Trust me" I gave her a reassuring smile while she sighed deeply before moving her lost and tear filled gaze to dad's tomb.

I know she's going through a whole lot and I know that deep inside she is blaming herself.

I knelt down and ran my hands on the beautifully designed italics and the structure of the tomb glittering as the sun shone on it.

This was the last place I expected to see dad immediately after our argument. Thinking back to it, we had a terrible argument.

I was so mad at him.

"Dad, what is the truth in our sob story" I said softly

"Who is behind this?"

"What secrets is the Felix name harbouring?"

A shadow above me distracted me and when I looked back I saw a man just looking directly at me but he was wearing I pink hoodie.

I tried to talk to him but he walked away and when I moved to follow him. I heard a thud....I turned to see mum had collapsed. I looked between the man and mum. Wait why the hell am I even contemplating?!!

I ran to her, "mum! Mum!!"

I called for an ambulance and waited impatiently for then whilst trying to wake my mother up. I looked up to see that the strange man had gone.

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The doctor came out of the ward and I recognized him to be dad's friend

"How is she?" I asked hurriedly when I forced my leg to stop pacing around

"She's better, we just noticed that she had been taking sleeping pills without proper meal, I've prescribed some drugs and list of food she should take for now"

I ran a hand through my hair

"OK thanks, I can see her right?"

"Yes you can"

Before I could go he stopped me

"Xandria" he started

Here we go again

"I want to offer my condolences, your dad was a great friend...I never thought I would use 'was' to describe him so soon" he said as his dark eyes held sympathy

"Thank you" I replied

He gave me a warm fatherly smile as he left.

I opened the door to the ward and found her asleep with a drip hanging above her and a nurse injecting something to it. I gave a slight smile to the nurse in greeting as I sat beside mum.

After the nurse left I began talking to mum.

"I am sorry mum, I made you to comfort me unintentionally and forgot how you might be feeling going home to a lonely bed without him....but I assure you that I won't spare them, whoever planned this should be ready for me"

I wiped a lone tear and rubbed my left chest with my hand in a bid to ease the unyielding pain.

"But mum I can't fight if you are weak, we need to be there for each other.....please don't hurt by falling sick like this okay??"

I looked at her pale sleeping face as I wiped my stream of tears.

I need to go for a drive.

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A/N

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