"Are you okay?"
For the ninth time, Vander asked me.
"Yes, Vander. Now, will you sit?" I sighed in relief when he went back to his chair. He eyed me once more and closed his eyes.
All I'm thinking about is Winona. Our dear friend whom we betrayed. I still cringed at the thought. Well, I guess I really am an evil friend. I feel sad everytime I remember how she looked when we revealed to her our relationship.
"I'm sorry..." Win. "Will you ever forgive me?" My eyes were already watering. She looked so betrayed and disgusted. The disgust in her eyes, amidst her uncontrolled tears, is very evident. Winona was not transparent of her feelings to me towards Vander but I can see that.
She likes Vander.
She likes him very much.
She likes the man I am inlove with.
But, will all the blame be put in mine? Why am I so guilty over this when we clearly had no exact confrontations or sharing of feelings. Why would we all think I betrayed her? Or we betrayed her?
But as a girl, I should have known better. I should have controlled my feelings. I knew from the start Winona had feelings with Vander. I guess I was really evil after all. I had Vander even when my friend likes him. I still flirted with him knowing my friend, Winona, likes him.
Vander, on the other hand, did not clear things up towards her. I mean, I was real dismayed when he chose to stay with Winona... To ask help from her when he had dealt with all his independent life. Why did he not come to me? That was the time we had spent apart from each other.
So I thought everything was all good. When we separate ways, althought, not that far, well, atleast we will have to go through our paths alone. I thought Vander and Winona are on the same boat. I thought of it even though it hurts me a lot.
I wasn't selfish at all. I have given them their time... right?
"L-Leave m-me alone, please?" She pleaded. Her tears kept on falling. Mine's flowing as well. Vander stayed outside. He's oblivious of what's going on. Sometimes, I hate him for being like that. I thought he knew about this. I feel sorry for Winona. I did not want to sound arrogant but I jusy really need to fix this. For once, settle this. I asked Vander to stay outside but I have to have them talking.
"Win, I'm sorry if you think we betrayed you. But, trust me, I didn't. I thought you and Vander are going too well with your relationship. Believe me when I tell you, I sacrificed my own feelings. I had to let him stay away from me even if I already love him. He hads to divert his attention. And I think he had! I swear I think you two were a thing already..." I sniffed as I was saying that. She's silent but is listening.
"I swear I tried, Win..." This time, she sobbed.
"But my love for him is just too strong. My love for him grew mad and..." I paused when she wiped her tears harshly. "and when I found out he was feeling the same, I rejoiced! I rejoiced because I can't believe it! I can't believe he still has feelings for me, after all. I love Vander with all my heart, Win. I am so happy because of him."
She cried and turn her back but I reached for her back and hugged her. After all, she was my friend. I've hurt her. I have inflicted pain. I am so lucky I got to meet her. I am so thankful for having Winona.
"Win, I am truly saddened but... Vander, I love him so much." I cried my heart out when she cried. Sorry uf thus pained you.
"Just... just go." She muttered.
The door opened and it revealed Vander. He looked worried and his eyes flew instantly to mine. I looked sad for sure and he was as if saddened as well.
"Win? Thal..." He murmured. "What's happening?"
Winona moved a bit. I think we would settle this now...
Just as I was about to let Win leave, she stopped in front of Vander. I was surprised.
"I was really sad," she started. "and disappointed." She added. "I thought you knew how I felt, Van. And even if you don't, I assume you had something..."
"What is-" he was cut off.
"I realized things just now. I wasn't honest and even if I was, that will not change the fact that you only had feelings with Thalita. I'm glad I met you both. I was happy with the momenta we spent together but I think we better off as apart. You need time for each other. It's painful but I will be okay. I'm sorry to have brought difficulty to your relationship. Until then, Thal, Vander..." She said and left.
"Thal..." Vander woke me up from my thoughts.
"Y-Yeah?" He looked concerned. "Why?" He embraced me with a hug. "Vander?"
"I'm sorry, Thalita. You were not well-rested the past days. So... can we share your bed? I will sing you to sleep, babe. Promise, I'll behave."
