"Estella, help me dress up please"

" Young Miss.."

I know what Estella wants to say, she's always worried about me, she's with me since I'm just little girl playing with dolls, she's like a mother to me.

"I'll be fine Stell don't be so worried, it's Declan whom I'm meeting, he's my fiance he won't do anything to me. Stop worrying everytime I'll go and meet him ok?"

"But Young Miss, everybody knows what's going on between Sir Declan and Ma'am Heather, I hate it when they gossip about you"

"He's my future husband now Stell, he can't be with Heather and I know he's not that kind of person"

Declan Theodore, a man whom I grew up with, the first man who told me I'm important, the man who captured my heart since we're little.

"Young Miss, If ever you feel like you're alone, remember that Remus and I are always here for you"

I gave Stell a reassuring smile and hugged her, if there's one person I know that will stay with me whatever happens, it's Estella.

I grew up sheltered, my father and brother sheltered me with material things,but never did I experience the shelter and warmth of my family. I always think that, what if my mother didn't die while giving birth to me, if she just give me up when the doctor said it's either her or me who will live. My father clearly chose my mother and willing to give me up, but my mother opposed and chose me.

When they learn that I like Declan, they immediately set me up with him, Declan didn't complain, or more likely he doesn't have the power to complain. But whatever happens, I still love my family, if someone will make me choose between my life or theirs, I'll choose theirs without second thoughts.

" I'll be going now, Stell don't worry It'll be fine, I promise"

I keep my eyes on the road, I don't go out often, and I graduated homeschooled so I always admire the scenes. I only go out when I'm going to visit House of Agape.

We stopped at a familiar building, a restaurant owned my brother. Familiar faces bowed to me as I walk inside with my butler.

I went straight to the VVIP Room, Declan wasn't there, it happens everytime so I'm not surprised, it's either he will arrive 1 to 2 hours late or he'll not come at all. I always order the restaurant staffs to not tell a word to my brother or lie if my brother ask.

" Young Miss Agape, looks like Master Declan couldn't make it...again" said Butler Rimus with worry

"I'm not sure Remus but I'll wait, don't worry I'm used to this right?"

I smiled at him, if Estella was my mother figure, then my father would be Remus. Butler Remus was originally my mother's butler. When my mother died, he became my butler and since then, he never leave my side.

We waited for two hours but Declan didn't show up. It's been 4 months since he became my fiance, every two weeks we're supposed to meet and be with each other as my father proposed, he told us that we need to get used to each other before marriage. We both didn't complain, we don't have the power to complain. And I also want this, to be able to see him and dine with him, but there are things that you can have but you cannot own.

After two long hours, I grew tired of waiting

"Remus I think he's not going, let's just go to House of Agape"

"The children will be elated to see you Young Miss"

I gave Remus a smile, House of Agape, the orphanage my mother supported when she was alive, and now I'm the one supporting it. I got very close with the children and I find it very comforting when I'm with them

We went to Jollibee first and ordered some foods for the children, they really love Jollibee. We waited for almost an hour before we receive our order.

Eyes on the road, I admire the green trees on my way to House of Agape, I always find it soothing. One day if I'll have the chance, I want to experience camping in a forest or in a mountain with someone I love.

Children welcomed me as I arrived in House of Agape, wearing their smile that I wouldn't get tired of seeing. They run towards me and envelope me with hugs.

"I missed you all" I greeted and smile at them

"We miss you too Ate Agape"

They said in unison, children here in orphanage calls me Ate Agape as I requested, I told them that's it's the Filipino term for 'sister', hearing them call me 'ate' is very fulfilling.

"How are you all?Are you all listening to Sister Joanne?"

Sister Joanne, she's managing the orphanage with the other three Sisters.

They all said 'Yes' in unison

"We always listen to Sister Joanne because Jollibee won't give us food if we don't"

I laughed at them, I told them that if they fight, Jollibee won't give them food, and it's their favorite

"Because you all are listening to Sister, Jollibee will give you food! "

"Yeeeeeyyy" they cheered in unison

I and the childrens have things in common, we all didn't experience maternal and paternal love but each day, we live our lives to the fullest.

I was just watching the children when Sister Joanne talked to me

"How are you Cerise?"

"I'm fine Sister, as usual everyday but it's fine, I'm fine"

"If your Mom is still alive, I'm sure she'll be very proud, you grew up with a kind a heart"

I always ask myself that, if mom was alive, will she be proud of me? and people I'm close with, they never fail to remind me that mom must be very proud of me, that she must be praising me in heaven.

"Thanks you Sister, you never fail to remind me how my mom must be very proud of me. Even of I didn't got the chance to meet her, I think I know her too well"

" Of course you'll know her well, she's your mother after all, you both have a very kind heart so please don't settle for less"

Sister looked at me with sympathetic eyes, I smiled at her, I don't want to show them I'm sad, I don't want to add to her burdens.

After playing and talking with the kids for a while, I decided to go home because it's getting dark already. It's not like someone would be waiting for me at home,I mean Estella will, but my dad and brother,they probably are still at work but to me going home before it gets dark is like a responsibility.