Lights. Flashes of cameras. Cheers of staffs inside the photoshoot chamber. I've been posting various positions and facial expressions in front of them almost blinding my eyes due to the flashes that the photographer's camera releases repeteadly. In spite of that— being exhausted, I love what I am doing. When the pictorial ended, my manager forthwith clapped his hands that made me flinched a little. "Damn. So gorgeous, Alcyone. Come here and look at your pictures. " He said while he is sitting in front of monitor's screen— filled with my pictures. I smiled at the staffs, especially to the photographer who took me pictures for almost an hour. I utterly appreciate each and every earthlings in this four-cornered-chamber. The purpose of the pictorial is for my new billboard pictures and posters that will be given to my sponsors and malls that I endorsed. It's been a year since I started the path that I ultimately desired since I was a juvenile. My happiness couldn't fathom by any pyschologist due to it is illegible. Immesuarable. However, albeit I've already reached my dream job there is something that I wanted to grasp. It is the triumphant that almost myriads of people wanted as well. It is not the usual triumphant such as winning a lottery, getting their awards, or having something that they longed for a long time. My triumphant that I am mentioning is a person who will love me whole heartedly— without doubts, without hesitations. I want a love that no one can explain. A perfect love to be precise. Howbeit, I am conscious of the fact that there is no such thing as perfect in this universe. No thing was created as perfect. But I want to love someone, except my significant others or my family. I want someone whom I can lend my heart and soul unto death without wonderng if they might broke and scattered it into piesce. Honestly, I'd been in a relationship before. But we ended up cutting the line between us because it was not working. And I am a busy person as well, I have lots of works and duties on my palm. Under the dazzling sun above of the skies, I am wishing that someone will came into my existence who will soften my hard heart that is definitely ardous to hold.
"How's your day, girl?" A friend of mine, Seiryue asked me as soon as I sat on the couch. Having a little bonding with them. I'm wearing a dress and a heels— a not too high. And a mask, therefore I won't catch people's attention. They might create a mess if ever. "Exhausted. Yup, as usual. But I'm good. No worries. " I responded. I removed my ask gently, we're in a VIP room so it was fine.
"Oh. You're exhausted yet you still have time to join us here. "
Xriovhal apprised me. They are my childhood friend, I met them both when were still in 4th grade, unto now that I am already 20, they didn't leave my side even though sometimes I don't have an adequate time for them. However, they totally understand my situation. They are non-celeb, they both work in a company. A prestogious one. Therefore, if I have a vacation or rest, I spend it with them. I neglect any kinds of messages from someone unless significant.
"You two is my rest. " I said and smiled at them. This Cafeteria is somewhat memorable for me. And I constantly ended up giggling or laughing when reminiscing it. This place remind me of how I rejected the guy who love me when I was in highschool. He has a good face. He's an ideal, honestly. No lies. But I don't like him. Poor him. I have no feelings to give. The sole thing that I can offer is friendship.
"Hm. " Seiryue interfere and putted her spoon down. Munching a cake in his mouth. "I've got the news that Claude likes you. Why don't you entertain him? You're single by the way. You still have no plan on dating someone?" She asked that made me stared at her for a seconds. I gulped.
"I already told you. " I smiled. "I still have no plans in such thing. I'm busy with my career. I don't like him in any way. He's ideal, yes. But you know. I don't feel anything upon him. " I shrugged. They didn't opened up that topic again, they are conscious about what I am trying to say. I think this is a curse? Or I am born to be alone? Like, not totally alone. Perhaps my destiny says I don't deserve building my own family.
