"Have you been lying the whole entire time?" He looked at me with disbelief, "Listen to me first, Kerstein," He was gesturing his hand, trying to explain himself.
"I am done with all the deceptions and lies that I have put of with all of my life," I was screaming at the top of my lungs, "I cannot let another man ruin all of the things that I have been building up," He started walking towards me.
"Kerstein!" He called out my name, "I refuse to listen," He grabbed my hand, pulling me close to him.
"Let me go, Raiden!" I shouted, "No, I won't, after all the moments we have shared and cherish I will not let you go so easily, Kerstein, so please listen!" With all the anger building up in my system. I forcefully pulled my hand back and slapped him with all my might.
All of the things that I hate, lies and deception, are what I despise the most; I will never trust someone again with the way I did with him. I had been relying on him for too long, expecting that this man was my salvation, that for all I could care, he would be the one I should lean on.
Looking at him, he was the epitome of a Knight in Shining Armor; I would never expect him to show up every time I need him, but with all the front he continues to show and the masks he continues to wear.
"Please leave, Raiden," I looked at him with a stoic face, trying to mask what I truly feel for him; that is what he does the best, masking his feelings, "Kerstein, do not look at me with that face," His face fell.
"What face?" I blankly stated and walked to him, "Kerstein," I pushed him back off.
"Leave, Raiden," I slapped his hand away without saying any words; he heaved a frustrated sigh and started walking away, "Leave!" I shouted.
I could feel the waters building up; tears started falling off one by one, they were dripping off endlessly; I am relieved that he is not here to see my pathetic side that I refuse to show anyone; he is not someone I should rely on continuously.
He is as pathetic as any other Nobles, who cannot set their egos aside because of the status and power that they hold, my feelings will not subside so easily, but I will try my best to forget that I even loved that man, how much of a dumb I am to realize everything so late.
Raiden is not a fool who will keep chasing me until wit's end just because it would benefit him; he learned something from this love that he keeps mentioning; he is a Knight respected by his peers and all of the Nobles that knows the House of Jin.
He is not something that you could take lightly. Even I acknowledge him for his bravery and compassion to others, but his personality says so otherwise; his foul mouth goes first, mixing it up with a spoonful of sweet lies that he continues to show off, impressing me until I fall hard for him.
