CHAPTER 1: FIRST MEET

　　I am here in the park, watching the children play together with their parents. They look so happy. I smiled bitterly. “What a good view to watch”, I whispered.

　　I hope I am as happy as they are. I wish I could play like them when I was young. I wish I had a family I could call family. I do not know why I was born into this world. I do not know what space I have here.

　　Was I just born to experience it?

　　Sometimes I think I wish I was in a dream. In a dream I wanted to wake up.

　　But how? If I knew it was true, that I was in the real world, that I am not dreaming and I had to accept it.

　　“But why is the world so unfair to me”, I said to myself as tears flowed. I slowly wiped my tears away with my thumb but it also stops immediately because someone handed me a handkerchief.

　　I looked at it first before accepting without looking at who gave it. I wiped my tears and cold, I don't care even if it's not mine. I opened it just to cover my face but I stopped because someone sneezed. I looked at it and saw a man standing in front of me and looking the handkerchief I was holding.

　　“ Yes,what do you need? ”, I asked while still wiping my tears and cold.

　　“The handkerchief.”, he replied in a cold voice.

　　“This handkerchief is yours?”,I asked incredulously.

　　He looked at me in a cold stare before speaking.

　　“Nevermind”, He said before turning around and starting to walk away.I followed him with my gaze and let it disappear from my sight.

　　I took a deep breath and looked at the children playing,before looking at the handkerchief.I sniffed it and closed my eyes.

　　“Hmmm, smells baby”,I smiled walking home while sniffing the handkerchief again and again.

　　When I got home, as always tita was angry again. She doesn't get tired of getting angry every day.

　　“Mom,I really love him I-I can't afford to lose him mom”, I heard my cousin Maria said while crying. I just shook my head and went upstairs. When I entered my room, I go straight to the bathroom to wash the handkerchief. I smelled it first before washing and hung it up in the bathroom then going down to cook dinner. When I came down, Maria and tita were already in the living room.

　　They talked about something but stopped because I was here.

　　“What are you doing here?",tita asked me.

　　I smiled before answering“I will cook our dinner tita”.

　　She raised an eyebrow at me before they left.

　　I smiled raw and take a deep breath.I'm not surprised anymore, they are always like that to me like I'm others and I'm used to it.

　　I started cooking our dinner and when I'm finished, I prepared everything on the table before calling them to eat.I was happy to sit down and would have taken the plate when tito sneezed before speaking....

　　“You will not eat with us dica”, W-what? Did I heard it wrong?

　　I was about to speak but Maria preceded me.

　　“What are you thinking, that you will eat with us? Hell no! You can eat later if there is any left”, She smiled foolishly and stared at me.

　　“But I cooked it all by myself tit—

　　”I don't care if you cooked it all.Stand there and we will eat, I'm hungry. Get out! ”,He said.

　　My chest tightened as I stood up and the shot formed in my eyes.It was as if something was blocking my throat,I wanted to cry.

　　“Aren't you used to it? They are always like this to you, what now huh? Are you going to cry again?”, I said to myself.

　　I just cried and cried in the room until an idea came into my mind.I looked at my empty luggage and my cabinet.

　　“No, this is not possible, when I leave this place where will I live?”, I whispered.

　　I just shook my head and lay down.But that idea never left my mind.When I leave here, will I still experience it again what I've always experience in here ?

　　I slowly got up, grabbed my luggage and packed the quantities and other things that were important to me.

　　But I also dropped the luggage when I thought of them, wait why do I think of them when in the first place they are the reason why I am leaving?

　　I thought for it in a few hours before making a decision. When I went down to the living room they were gone. They already finished eating but did not even put away what they had eaten. I took a deep breath before starting to clean the table and ate their leftovers. I have no choice I am hungry.

　　When I made sure they were all asleep, I got dressed. I wore trousers paired with a loose black shirt and a hat. I took my luggage and slowly got off.

　　I'm now out of the house. I looked at the whole thing and smiled hard.

　　“Thank you for the twenty-two years of suffering here”,I said and started walked away.

　　On the other side,while Devinder driving his car his father called.

　　"“Where are you?”, His father asked.

　　“Dad, I'm on my way there, give me 15 minutes”, I said and dropped the call.

　　F*ck, now you are really really broken. I slapped the steering wheel before I got out of the car and called one of my staff.

　　“Bring me one of my cars now, the black one”, I did not wait for their answer because it was not necessary

　　I don't know if I was unlucky today or if it was intentional, my feet even took me to the park.

　　My d*mn day is ruined f*ck!

　　My foot hurt a little because of walking and I just saw a chair, I would have been close when suddenly a woman sat on it. Just.What.The.Fuck!

　　I was about to go and I was ready to leave the woman since Iym the first one who saw in that chair but also stopped immediately when I saw her face. Her eyes are beautiful, attractive. But no matter how beautiful her eyes are, you can still see the sadness here.

　　I looked at her from head to toe. She is wearing a knee-length skirt but I can still see her legs paired with a violet tshirt with a blue cat design. I looked back at her face and her beautiful eyes were already raining.

　　Fuck this! I don't like women crying in front of me.

　　I was about to go but suddenly my cellphone rang.

　　“What?”, I asked when I answered his call.

　　“Sir, here I am. The car you said is also here. Where are you?”, He replied.

　　“In the park ventilating”, I answered nothing to myself.

　　“S-sir?”,

　　“Wait for me there I am going ”,

　　“But—

　　I did not finish him and dropped the call.I only took two steps but I stopped because I heard sobs.

　　Shit!

　　I was about to take another step but stopped again because of the sob of that woman.

　　Sh*t! Sh*t! Sh*t!

　　I took another step but towards the woman who was crying. I looked at it but I was staring at her arm before I took the handkerchief from my pocket and handed it to her.

　　She looked at it first before accepting and using it. Oh jesus, she wiped it on her cold.I looked at her again while she's wiping it.She opened the handkerchief wide to cover her face.

　　I fake a cough because she didn't seem to care who owns the handkerchief.

　　She looked up at me and my heart seemed to stop beating when our eyes met and I couldn't speak right away.

　　“The handkerchief ”, it just came out of my mouth.

　　She didn't even believe that I owned that fucking handkerchief?

　　“Nevermind”, I just said when my cellphone suddenly vibrated.

　　Oh fuck! I turned around and walked away quickly. I ran the interval and immediately got into the car. I ignored Jonard and immediately started the car. I looked at my watch and just cursed because I was so late.

　　And I was right,dad was so mad.

　　“15 minutes. You said 15 minutes BUT WHAT TIME DID YOU ARRIVE? HOW MANY F*CKING MINUTES DID WE WAIT FOR YOU?YOU EMBARRASSED ME DEVINDER ! YOU EMBARRASSED ME! ”, Dad shouted in front of me and left.

　　What am I thinking, I need to take dad's heart! Fuck This!

　　Annoyed I went upstairs and went straight to the bedroom and suddenly the image of the woman I saw in the park came out.

　　This is your f*cking fault woman!