They say if you love something let it go and if it was meant to be it will return back to you. Looking at my family home through the window of the car my father sent to return me home I think that is not always true.

The house is the same as I left five years ago. Brilliant white brick with midnight colored shutters and match front door. My favorite part of the landscape were the two tall stone statues of wolves with there heads held up towards the moon. I always felt as they were howling for my return home.

As the car pulled to the front door I saw my mother and father exit with big smiles on their faces.

"Diamond Lotus" my mother sang my name as the scent of Lotus flowers, cinnamon and vanilla caressed my nose followed by my fathers soothing Fir Pine and rain scent.

They engulfed me in our traditional three-way family hug.

I glanced around detecting the scent of earth and wild roses, I was embraced by my younger brother

Steele. Turning around I had to look up to my younger brother who now towered over my 5'5 frame by at least a foot.

"I'm 6'3" Steele proudly informed me. Four more inches and he would be as tall as our father. Steele had morphed from a cute pup to a gorgeous man. At 17 he had a head full of curly hair and sable colored eyes he looked like my fathers twin.

"I see you've grown up"

"I have and on Saturday I will be an adult"

Saturday was Steele's 18th birthday. The party my parents planned for Steele was going to be nothing short of epic. Not only was Steele going to be 18 but he would also be going off to begin to complete Strategic Alpha training.

It was decided that both Steele and I would be trained since we were both born Alphas. I discussed this with my parents when I first found out my mate planned to reject me, I needed a backup in case I decided to leave and never return.

My father was proud that I wanted my brother to lead with me if only he knew the real reason his pride would become a disappointment.

Lost in my thoughts I here

" You still haven't found your mate?"

Steele asks with a smile.

"Not yet, but who knows with all the people coming to your party maybe they'll be there" I winked.

The thought of seeing him made my heart race for a brief moment until I remembered I was prepared for the rejection.

I had made arrangements to travel for a few months, id prepared a statement to be released to the pack once the statement was given I'd leave to grieve and heal and then I would return to lead my pack.

I had gone over the plan thousands of times in the last four years, it took me a year to accept what was to happen.

I often thought of why my mate would reject me, I was known to be a good person, a great friend, I was a strong warrior but also trained to be a Luna. I was told that I was beautiful which I accepted because I took after my mother and she was stunning. I had long curly hair and her almond shape eyes. Maybe it was my weight, or shape, at 5'5 I was incredibly curvey I was solid and soft, I had never interacted with him so I didn't know why he would reject me.

I'm sure Ill get my answer on Saturday as I know for a fact he will be at my brothers party.

Maybe then ill find out why Giovanni DeSilva made up his mind to reject me.