I was running like my life depended on it. I don't care about the rain. All I care about is Kyle. He thought I was with Dylan.

I was in the library looking for Kyle.

Today is Kyle's birthday. We both settled to meet in the library. I was waiting for almost 10 minutes but there's no sign of Kyle yet.

So, I decided to look for some books to read while waiting for Kyle to arrive when Dylan approached me. " Hi Alyssa," he greeted with a small smile.

I was startled at first but I smiled at him. " Jeez! You scared me," I said while calming myself down.

" Oh! Sorry" he said. I was about to ask him a question when I saw his expression. He seemed nervous and uneasy.

"Alyssa. I have to tell you something." I nodded and smiled at him. " What is it about?" I asked while fetching a book.

" I. I like you," he said which made me stop from reaching out for my second book when I heard it.

I turned around and looked at him with shock, written all over my face. "W-what? What did you say?" I asked.

Dylan sighed and looked me in the eyes then said " I like you, Alyssa" said firmly. Shaking my head and chuckling nervously.

" But… I thought. " I mumbled to myself. " I like you, Alyssa. I know you like me too and I was wondering if you-"

He didn't get to finish his sentence when I turned around. "I'm sorry, Dylan," I said while walking towards my seat.

" Wait, Alyssa!" he exclaimed which made me stop in my tracks. " Who is he? Is it Chief? or Vince?" he asked. I looked at him and shook my head.

"No. It's Kyle," I said, which made Dylan look at me with disbelief. " Dylan, I'm so sorry but can we still be friends?" I asked.

Dylan sighed in defeat and chuckled then looked at me. " Hey, it's alright. I knew you liked him but at least I tried," he said while smiling a little.

" Can we still be friends, Dylan?" I asked again while hugging my book closer to me.

Dylan smiles and winks " Yes, Alyssa, and besides, you're still friends with a handsome guy like me," he said playfully which made me laugh.

" Yeah, I'm happy to have a cocky friend like you, Dylan," I said while chuckling that made him pout.

" Why are you so mean to me? But I gotta go now. I still have the practice to do" He said.

I nodded in response then smiled at him. "Uhm… can I get a hug please?" he asked while opening his arms.

I chuckled in amusement as I closed the distance between us and hugged him. "Thank you for understanding, Dylan," I said and he nodded then slowly let me go.

When Dylan left, at the same time I saw Kyle walking away towards the exit. " Hey, Kyle!" I was calling out to him. But he ignored me, so here I am running under the rain.

Maybe this time, I can tell him the truth.

About what I felt about him.

I run inside his small apartment and open the door but only to see Kyle cutting himself with a blade.

I immediately ran to his side then held his hand with the blade. "Stop! What are you doing, Kyle?!" I exclaimed as I'm trying to get the blade from Kyle's grip.

" Go! Leave me the fuck alone, Alyssa!" he shouted with rage.

"NO! I will not stop until you listen to me! Hurting yourself won't change anything!" I exclaimed while stared into his emerald eyes as my tears ran down my cheeks.

Kyle stopped and wiped my tears away. " Please leave me be. You deserve better. I can't give you what he has. Dylan is perfect for you. Be with him, Alyssa," he pleads while moving away from me.

" I love you, Kyle," I whispered. Kyle stopped in his tracks and turned around to look at me with shock on his face.

"What did you say?" Kyle asked. I raised my head and stared into his emerald eyes with sincerity and..... Love.

" I love you, Kyle......not Dylan.." Kyle is still looking at me like I have two heads.

But after a few minutes, he turned around and walked towards the door not before he stopped once again then said.

"I don't love you, tomato. I never did. Go to Dylan, give him a chance." Kyle said. "No. Please, Kyle. I choose you." I muttered between my sobs.

Kyle stared at my teary eyes with his lifeless ones. " Loving me will be your downfall, tomato" He whispered then close the door behind him as he left.

My knees got weak as I slowly fall on the floor still looking at the door. Hoping that he'll come back. I can't stop the tears. It hurt so much.

I wanna tell him. That I've been in love with him for so long. And I kept choosing him over and over again.