The desire of a person corresponds to his understanding and those who reflect make the best choice!
The young man who did not give up trying to make his way in life, understood what qualities he needed and what he needed to leave in order to get what he wanted and from day to day scrolled through different scenarios of the future in his head, but the emotion always became a problem, whose guidance kept it further and further away from it success. Do we know ourselves as we think we know? And what questions have we yet to answer and understand the answer!
02:34... Holding his breath, he looked at the Clock and tried to understand how much more time would be spent in this way before he takes action. The desire to find himself, to become successful has been living in him for many years. The question remains, which still has no answer.
02:42... fleeting thoughts in the head of a young guy, as if knocking him down and again he is at the starting point of his consciousness while he wants to move forward and doing nothing while sitting on the couch with a pen and a sheet of paper that still hadn't touched each other. The pleasant sound of silence was combined with the sound of the refrigerator, which was all at work. While the young man's look at the watch once again led to the obvious thought "Time is waiting for no one"
It seemed like thousands of paths stood in front of him and each one called to walk along it, which made it harder to choose and confused his thoughts, the head of the young guy was already a mess, even though it seemed that control completely belonged to him. The moment of an emotional explosion was approaching, and its probable outcome would put an end to endless doubts and lead him to incompletely planned but decisive actions that had long been eager to see the light. Putting aside a piece of paper and other things on the table, he decided to go for a walk. It was the middle of the night, the star-laden sky showed a beauty that went unnoticed, because so often we look only under our feet and thereby miss all the opportunities we possess. We look, but we don't see, and to our regret, we remain among those many people for whom success in life and inner peace are as far away as the stars that decorated the sky that night...
Almost any question that was addressed to him had an answer, very competent, with a share of understanding but still not having a useful reflection in real life. What was the secret? The young guy wondered in the process of his thoughts, walking along an empty street accompanied of parked cars and now the rising sun. Many people get up with the first sun light having different goals and different ways to achieve them. Only a tiny fraction of them wakes up - inspired by their idea and certainty in the path that remains to be traveled. He did not consider himself to be in the first or second category and was looking for a key that would open the door for him to the world of those very few and successful people. The first person he saw was a man aged 30-35, who looked like an office worker in a dark suit of an inexpensive brand with a briefcase in his left hand, walking with hurried steps. What he saw was not unusual and made him just not want to be like this man, who, according to the guy, preferred the so-called stability and gave up attempts to be the master of his time. All that he saw around him, on television and heard from most people, caused nothing more than a smirk towards others and sadness because, as before, the guy was still one of those whom he did not want to become. The solution was obvious, triggered by thoughts day after day, which had ever greater weight. One day I will find my place in successful circles and I should start immediately, returning from a walk, he said for the first time aloud to himself. The dark brown door behind which he could always find shelter from external irritants and his weak personality lost weight, it was the home of his parents. A place similar to a fortress where security reigns, because at any moment they will shelter, feed and take care of it in the best way. I could not wait to bring the moment of reciprocity closer - a manifestation of gratitude not only with the word but also with the result of deeds expressed by sumptuous gifts, flowers, and in all possible ways. The dream was to see pride in the eyes of relatives for a son, grandson, brother... this became a source of strength - a spark, without which this path could not be completed. The kettle made a boiling sound and the morning began in no way different from the previous one with one exception, the picture of the world in one instant became brighter and clearer, with an accurate indication of the place where the guy was. This could not but rejoice, as the fog of uncertainty began to dissipate and a confident look into the future was reflected in the guy's eyes. The failures of the past were both an invaluable experience and the likeness of fetters calling for another attempt, the result of which will again be failure, repeated the cowardly voice that was part of his personality. But this voice was cowardly, and this is exactly what He first noticed. Wow! Really before I was so absorbed in fear so much that the sharpness of the goal was an illusion! And I was going the wrong path - In deep thought, on the threshold of the parental home, Cal froze up.
⁃ Since when did walk become your favorite pastime? Let's mark this day in a calendar with a smile the father said. Who was surprised to look at his son - a lover of sleep until the evening.
⁃ As you once said, morning is my best company
⁃ and what was the conversation about?
⁃ Mmm... probably about the distance between me and my place in this world.
⁃ Son, a person's place in this world is not the address where you live alone or with your family, not work or work that you are busy with from morning to evening... People say - I am in my place, having peace, serenity and contentment from that moment in which they are located regardless of what is happening around. I think that people see the world through those qualities that they possess, therefore, what is inside is more expensive than what is outside. Know and strengthen your best qualities and you will easily find what you are looking for.
You two talk for more than 30 seconds, bravo - a voice came from the room.
Cal rarely talked with his father about something serious, mostly standard questions and answers sounded, and the duration of the conversations was minimal. The invisible barrier that arose when Cal was still in school was not something negative, rather he expressed respect, as he was brought up on the model of the past. As for the lessons of morality and etiquette, they were repeated day after day, but were expressed only in a few words, and therefore at that time, still very young Cal had to independently master the subtleties of short lessons that his father gave him. Unnoticed, all the inhabitants of the house gathered at the table and leisurely proceeded to breakfast. From the street came the joyful cries of children for whom the new day was no different from the holiday.
⁃ why can't adults do that? Looking out the window asked Cal.
⁃ What cannot? Mom asked in a loving voice.
⁃ They cannot enjoy life as children.
⁃ Interesting thoughts! - Father emphasized, after which he looked at his wife with an interested look, thereby expressing a desire to hear the mother's answer.
⁃ Children have just come to this world and are trying with all their might to know it, climb anywhere, touch and taste everything that attracts their attention and failures in something that cannot stop them. Now think about the main difference.
⁃ I'm afraid my answer is no match for yours mom, - answered Cal with a smile. Perhaps at an early age we are bolder because of the unconsciousness of the act and its consequences?
⁃ You are right, but I think the main difference is that children are specific in their desires. Speaking in the language of adults, they clearly see their goal and go to it with such stubbornness that obstacles in their path is like fluff scatters in the wind. And what can bring more joy than achieving a goal...! Most people, as they grow older, are increasingly shrouded in fear of failure and therefore decisiveness in action is minimized. Many factors influence this, and children are free from external circumstances and other people's opinions.
⁃ So in childhood we are more successful than now, with a deep breath, Cal said.
⁃ Not necessarily son! Having been born, a person is already somewhat successful, since he has the ability to do the right thing. To understand yourself better and to understand the situation in which you are, just look at yesterday, which resulted in today. People often ponder among acquaintances and friends trying to find the reason for the difficult situation they are in, but they themselves don't hear what they are talking about. Words without reflection and understanding of what has been said confuse people sometimes more than a life situation. Therefore, always look at the situation from the moment of its beginning and the correct conclusion will be easier.
Thanks, Mom - Cal smiled with the understanding of importance of advice.
Standing by the window and forgetting about breakfast, which was waiting, Cal peered at what was happening, one boy ran screaming at the whole courtyard, the other ran behind him with an equally sincere smile on his face and, as it were, urged the rest to run with them, while waving their hand at them and they all played the same game and were carried away by it as much as possible. Everyone knew his role and clearly performed it, but there is no reward or praise in the game, and only the process itself every day brings joy to the kids playing in the yards of thousands of houses. Apparently this is the reward, he suddenly thought and began to compare adults and children trying to make out the stream of various thoughts that had not visited him in such a large number for a long time.
The children reminded him of that slight sensation in his chest and that sincere smile with which he spent every day as a child and he wondered, how to transfer this state to his current state? Where to start? And perhaps having acquired this state, I will find my place in life thought Cal.
