Nothing is more concerning than seeing yourself again after knowing that you died, right? I look innocent. Seeing myself in the mirror is not new but felt so untrue. Am I really sent here again just to suffer again?
Wait..
I rushedly walk to see what date today is in the calendar and saw the day 2 years before my execution.
'My execution' sounds creepy actually. I died like yesterday and now I'm here 2 years before that day. What's the purpose of this, do the 'above' wants me to suffer. I can't even stop the jealousy I felt everytime I see that cotton candy head woman.
As I lay down to my bed to rethink my life again, a loud bang from the door threw me out to the reality.
"Excuse me?" who in the Earth dares to bang my door this loudly.
I decided to know what or who made that sound. As I walk nearer to the door I can hear a familiar voice panting, due to anger. I feel like I know who is this.
I opened the door without hesitating and my guess is right. "Lavein, how many times do I have to tell you to leave Adele alone!"
Yes, this is Prince Alan. The crowned prince and my fiance. After all those years of suffering and loving I realized one thing.
They don't deserve my efforts.
"Is that really how a prince should act in front of his fiance?" My nerves are about to explode. Seeing him this close again makes me happy, with anger and hatred. This man in front of me is the one who killed me.
"No this is not about a prince and his crazy fiance" as if his words are daggers soaked in poison. Raising his fingers and pointing at me
"Adele almost injured her arms because of your stupid jealousy!" His words are correct but that was me before I died.
"So what? My grip isn't blades nor an object. I'm a duke's daughter and the crowned prince fiance with the King's guidance, she did something wrong and how dare a merely girl insult me."
Before he could talk back a maid came in with a worry in her face.
"Ah-uhm Lady Ferighn, Prince Willston the King wants to have a discussion with the both of you" Me and Alan looked at each other with glares in each eyes before he decided to surrender the argument and walked away. The maid looked at me with still worry. "Don't worry I'll go, can you please help me first with my dress" then she nodded.
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All that scene was familiar. Everything just copied itself just like before. The difference was I acted for myself and not for him. That scene happened before too. When he barges in I was so happy because even though he's mad at least he visited me. So disgusting.
"So when did the King arrived at the duchy?" I asked the maid whose fixing my corset.
"His majesty arrived not too long ago after Prince Willston barges here, my lady" she responded.
I forgot what happened next but I'm sure that his majesty is about to tell, that me and Alan should attend his 50th birthday celebration together. But of course Alan would 'not' attend a single celebration with me when Adele is there for him.
Adele, is truly a beautiful woman whom I despise. I can't deny that she's more attractive than me, which is an another reason why Alan chose her over, I guess.
"Rosa?" That's the maid's name. Glancing at myself in the mirror, a daughter of a Duke is not that bad looking at all. "Yes Lady Ferighn?" She stood beside me after finishing the touch up.
"What can you say about Adele" her eyes widened.
"Well, uhm, Miss Adele is nice and..." struggling to continue her sentence. I suppose I looked wicked for her to act like this when I'm just asking a short question.
"Rosa, I don't bite"
"Miss Adele is nice and angelic, actually a lot of people says she looks like the saintess of Mooroe long ago"
Thus, there are more pleased on Adele's appearance.
"She helped a lot of people together with Prince Willston, her maids are also full of compliments towards Miss Adele since they're well taken care of her" and she got carried away while in front of Adele's rival.
"I only asked one question so I only need one answer and that was enough, bring me that black pouch" pointing at the drawer of my vanity. She walks toward the vanity and took it from the drawer.
"Oh my Lady, are you--"
"No I'm not so please you're annoying me" she handled me the pouch, containing one of the most important needs of my body.
"Why do you keep pills my lady? Are you perhaps... " this maid is also getting to my nerves.
"If your guess is right, keep it to yourself or I'll make you my rival too" I smiled bitterly at her and decided to proceed downstairs.
No, I'm not in a serious illness or anything.
As I walk in a long hallway leading to the greenhouse. Memories passed through my head. This hallway used to be our racing ground. With whom you may ask? Of course with Alan, Theodore and Matilda. They were my best friend, playmate, and as for Alan, I thought of him as my soulmate.
Matilda and I are still friends, in my past life she died because of me. My friend died, because of my selfishness. It was when I hired someone to push Adele while in the stairs to teach her a lesson. Instead it was Matilda who was pushed by that stupid person. He mistakenly thought it was the Adele I'm talking about. Adele and Matilda has the same hair color. She died because the impact of the fall affected her brain. And that's why I'm indeed a bad person. I'm here now to change that. I won't play safe ,rather I'll be more wicked but good.
Pretending to be good will make me look weak, and I won't be weak in front of those who wronged me before. But, I want to live a peaceful life now. So the bad things that happened before won't occur again. Leaving behind those who I troubled will be safe from me. I guess? At least that's what I know.
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"Good day, majesty" i bend to do a curtsey and sat beside Alan. Whose still glaring at me by the way.
"How's my daughter-in-law?" he asked.
"I'm doing fine, go ask your child if he does because his eyes might pop out of anger" he laughed it out. I know that King Willston is aware of our relationship so he just laughs it out to avoid awkwardness.
"Okay okay haha let me proceed straight to the topic, I want you both to attend my grand celebration 'together'" a loud bang from the table came after.
"Father I told you that I'm not coming with her! Dele will be there and I don't want her to feel lonely" my face literally goes cringing. Excuse me? So how am I gonna be?
"Oh son, at least this once! You two will be the face of the kingdom someday, its your obligation to enter the celebration together! Because that's what your future is." King Willston felt tense after that. He supports us both but that stubborn child, like me back then is blinded with love.
"Well then I don't want to be her fiance and I don't want this marriage" Alan said.
"And so do I" they both looked at me shocked and jaw-dropped. They didn't expect this for sure.
"What did you just say, dear?" His majesty asked.
"I said I don't like this marriage too, I don't want to be this stubborn prince fiance and I want to dissolve this engagement. So if you may excuse me I'm still tired and I want to rest" I bend down again to kneel and stood up as I walked away from them creating a drama. I didn't plan to be this dramatic, but sure.
"Hey come back here you!" I heard Alan, confused. See, I can refuse a prince.
Before he can reach me I told the Knights to not let him touch even a strand of my hair. He is confused. First time being rejected? You deserve it.
