Steena's POV
I'm running as fast as I can barely to escape from him. I don't want to go near to him again. But I'm in horrified when someone tugged me and corner me to the barricade. I closed my eyes and clasp my breath at the indistinguishable time. Why now? I'm not prepared to face him right now. I poked him but he's excessively robust I made an effort then but it's like I'm dragging a whole mansion. So tough.Steena c'mon.Ugh
"Enough. You're just expending your energy. I'm not going to allow you to go again, Steena. Please" I eventually confronted him with what he said. And now our eyes fulfilled, I saw how sincerely his gapes when he said that but heck. I'm not going to reckon in his delightful utterances again. Ridiculous! I struggled not to chuckle but I can't help it. He glimpses at me with agitating eyes, marveling why I'm optimistic.
"I'm not Steena, what are you babbling about?" I asserted crucially. I restrained his gaze when he addressed mine. I'm not fortunate at fabricating, heck! But I need to. I am necessary to do this.
"What are 'you' talking about? I anticipate you extremely enough Steena, Don't ever try to prevaricate at me" He mumbled in a significant tone. I inflate my fingers and pointed them in my face. It's vast of acne, my brows prevailed darker than black and it's thicker too. I have huge eyeglasses too. My hair is so chaotic, to be brief I look like a loser geek. I look through when the drizzles started to fall down And Currently, I realized where I am. I'm in our precious spot, way back then we're so pleased. And We conceived this neat house in the middle of the forest because We both love nature. But now it's not good to felt anymore. All I just felt for him is agony, agony because he just ripped off me, agony because he deceives on me! agony because he wrecked my life!
"I know it's you, just by looking in your eyes I know it's you Steena!"
"Stop naming me Steena because I'm not that Steena back then, And please let go of me, Luxxe"
"What for? to avoid from me? No, I won't let you go. I'll tell you"
"Let me go," I said In a soothing voice. I don't want to drain myself and fritter my energy merely for this lunacy. I'm depleted, really tired.
"I need to explain everything. I know I commended something erroneous and I hurt you so let me explain-" I cut out his sentence because I can't brandish it anymore.
"Of course, you mistreat me and you're invariably hurting me. Luxxe you betray on me! How will you explain that I caught you kissing someone, Luxxe you kissed someone here in this house. In this f*cking house Luxxe. What are you going to explain? that she beguiles you that's why it went on. heck! Even though she seduced you if you loved me you can't afford to do that" My fissures are running down in my cheeks. I aimed to halt my sobbing but it got louder. He wipes my tears but I nudged his hand away. I"ll wipe my tears using my hands Because I don't have a handkerchief with me. I look at him again and I scarcely fainted when his eyes were also red. nevertheless, I prolong talking.
"You know me, Luxxe.On that day, I leave you not letting out anything but that does not mean that I already drove off with you. Luxxe, I've waited for your explanation but you didn't show up. I've waited for you because you know how I prefer an explanation for that, heck I'm your girlfriend. The other day, I'm so enthusiastic to go to school, wondering if you have a surprise for me or what the fact is I don't need anything but only scarcely your explanation. I'm so excited because when I enter the gate of the school, all students are looking at me so I thought that you have a 'surprise' but I'm additionally shocked when you two are together again. how amusing right? and what you've announced to me back then?" I asked him, tears running down on my face. I look at him rapidly in his eyes.
"What did you said? hmm. Uh, I remember 'I'm sorry I don't love you. I just manipulated you. I loved Clea, I'm sorry Steena but you're only frivolity to me' wow, great words huh?"I laughed sarcastically but deep inside it's tarnished. It hurts to remember again the past that I don't want to happen again. He's just listening to me and allowing me to say what I want and I think that's great because I don't want to hear anything from him right now, not now......Because of my tears my face already cleaned, the makeup that I put to look like acne is already gone.
" Why did you disguise as a nerd?"I avoided his gaze when he asked me that...
"I'm tired of the full attention that they gave me. Because of that 'attention', I got hurt that break me the most. I don't want attention. I just wanted to be a nobody. And have a peaceful life, a normal life.No attention, no judgment, no pain" I said as I look into his eyes. I smiled at him.
"Don't worry. I didn't despise you I just hate in what you did."He's roughly to converse when I stopped him.
" When you wanted to elucidate something then you may do so...But not now, I can't handle it anymore but don't foresee to me that your explanation can reverse everything, yeah I will listen but not any more second chances. I'll go ahead" I said and left not letting him speak.
I'm now inside of my car and I haven't turned it on yet. Such a tiring day! I look at the window of my car and I realized that the rain already stops. So glamorous scenery, nature...but I knew that I couldn't prevail long in this place so I left instantly.
"Darling, where did you went and what happened to your eyes?" When I entered my mom already there. So I guess, she doesn't have a business pilgrimage. She's a smooth talker that's why I nearly cry when she asked me but I clasp it because I don't want to worry my mom. I simply glimmered at her
"Where's dad, mom?" I'm like my mom smooth talker too and She has many characteristics that I inherited she's firm and respectable too. My dad is an honorable individual yet he's not invariably serious and honestly he's so leisure to be with that's why I love dad, I love my family so I don't want to make them worry.
"He's having a committee with a client. Did you already eat dinner? let's go I simmered your favorite" I lost my appetite and I have the scheme to dodge dinner meals but I can't say no to mom. she cooks for me and I don't want to squander her efforts. The whole dinner I'm stunned and I know mom noticed it. I'm grateful that she didn't ask anything about it because I'm not in the mood to talk right now. I'm so preoccupied with what happened hours ago
I closed my eyes when I felt the frigid hurricane, it's like it's squeezing me, soothing me and I like it. I'm on the veranda drinking wine. I'm now glancing at the sky and I'm amazed when I glimpse one star. they're many but only one is the brightest. I drink another wine and it feels so favorable. Drinking wine on a veranda adds the refreshing air. I look furthermore into the sky and I find the brightest one but I was unexpectedly agitated when I couldn't discern it any more. I giggled when I acknowledged something perhaps she barely wanted to be like the others stars. probably the luminous star reaped tired of prevailing noticed perpetually... It's humorous, who would have thought that the prominent lady, the queen of the university will become nerdy on campus and just a nobody?
